Oops

I’m sorry.  I am trying to be a relatively good blogger, but recently that has gone by the wayside.  I had hoped that summer would be a lot better, not only for this blog, but for me.  Then I inadvertently ate some gluten.  I never thought that having like 5 fries that were cooked in the same oil as onion rings could have such a huge effect on me.  I know it sounds like that whole “I’m a teenager, so I’m invincible” speech, but after all of my health stuff, I don’t believe in that one bit.  I just thought that the more time that you spent not eating gluten, the worse the reaction will be when you have the tiniest amount.  I thought that that would be awhile from now.  And that scares me to know that when this little tiny mistake happens again, that I am in trouble.  Maybe it will be a year from now, maybe a week from now.  I don’t know.  I just don’t want it to happen.  The thing that scares me the most is knowing that it will.  I am only in my teens.  I still have my twenties, thirties, forties, and so on.  That is a lot of years.  A lot of mistakes.  A lot of pain.  I’m just glad that it’s not constant.  That I am thankful for.  I just need to be better.  And I want to stay that way for a very long time.  (Right now I’m thinking one slip up every 10 or so years.  Yeah that would be nice… if only…)